So My boyfriend dumped me this time. So I've learned my lesson. Never go back to Ex boyfriends.
So the reason why he dumped me is because he couldn't handle me being a certain way. I'm sorry but I'm extremely pissed off...but I'm going to let it go. It's not worth getting worked up over. He made a promise he couldn't keep and he expected me to give up who I am for him. Hell NO! I'm sorry but I won't compromise my happiness just for someone else. I come first. That may sound like a selfish thing to say but I have sacrificed a-lot of shit for him and have gotten heart broken anyways. I wanted to make things work... but noo.. he didn't want to work anything out and I screwed up by going back to him. I should of stayed the way I was upon getting back to him.. single and free.
Then upon leaving my house he told my best friend "Well its back to internet dating," and his best friend who was also here mediating us said it was meant as a joke but that is not something you joke around about. Also he knew what he was getting himself into. I explained it several times, and My best friend also explained it to him a couple of times. She was there the night he asked me out and so therefore I am never going back to him... EVER. That Chapter is closed and Done with. He want's to remain friends but even then I think NOT.
my friend CL once said:
" Remember, You are free. In the eyes of the heavens, and no man or woman or creature will keep you in a cage without your permission," -
Freedom is forgiveness, Freedom is letting your anger go, freedom comes when you are ready to be who you are and not accept anything less, Freedom comes when you are ready to stand up for who you are and what you want in life, Freedom is when you live your life the way you want to and not having anyone to answer to. Freedom is when you connect to the very earth around you and connect to your true nature, Freedom is when you don't care what others think of you, Freedom comes when you are no longer afraid of who you are and who you want to become, Freedom is not letting others get you down, Freedom is letting go of guilt and shame, and lastly Freedom is power.
I am Free and I need to remember that. So I venture forth in my freedom! Just sayin.