PhotoChick180

Well things have certainly been interesting on my end of things. I haven't really done any new art lately. I have done a painting recently that was intended as a gift but so far I have not had too much time to do any art. In a way my inspiration has been gone since going through a bunch of BS since 2012. Either way though things are looking up. I met the love of my life at convergence last year and we have been together for almost a year. He plans on proposing to me and we have already got rings picked out. We plan on getting married someday. Out in public we introduce ourselves as each other's fiance however, technically we aren't engaged y

So My boyfriend dumped me this time. So I've learned my lesson. Never go back to Ex boyfriends. So the reason why he dumped me is because he couldn't handle me being a certain way. I'm sorry but I'm extremely pissed off...but I'm going to let it go. It's not worth getting worked up over. He made a promise he couldn't keep and he expected me to give up who I am for him. Hell NO! I'm sorry but I won't compromise my happiness just for someone else. I come first. That may sound like a selfish thing to say but I have sacrificed a-lot of shit for him and have gotten heart broken anyways. I wanted to make things work... but noo.. he didn't want to

So a couple of months ago the cages I put upon myself have been opened and I have been set free. In the last 5-6 years, I gave up on my dreams, I gave up on my hope for a better future. I caged myself out of fear of getting hurt, of getting rejected, of fear that I wont succeed and considered myself a failure; a worthless piece of crap. Then I caged all the emotions from said event along with my core. Ever since I had a traumatic experience I gave up on writing, on art, on my own desires of what I wanted to do with my life. I put a part of myself away, and disassociated myself from the core of who I was. Even though I went to work everyday, a